Back to where I came from

I'm back at my mother's.
For reasons I'm going to refrain from typing.
I went to Austin for 'spring break'
A mini-vacation for myself.
As fast-paced as that city is, I felt so much more relaxed.
And comfortable.
Much more than what I feel here.
The only tyme I ever feel something lyke that is when I'm around my nephews.
My mother.
And Cole.
I want to get a place with Jed soon.
Preferably at the end of July/beginning of August.
I figured Austin would be the best place.
Start over in a new city.
But Cole wouldn't be there.
And I really don't know how to even function without him.
My nephews would be so far away as well.
But I do need to get the fuck out of here.
I'm living a routine live in Longview and that's not what I want or need.
But I do want to wake up in a new house.
Go to work.
Come home and start on dinner.
Play snes or read.
Call to the boys that dinner is ready.
Eat.
Start baking.
Sleep.
Do it all over again.
And I want this to happen with some good people.
Jed is a perfect candidate for that.
He's lyke me in a lot of ways.
I wish that Tay would room with us.
But I don't know how that would work out.

I feel so much more at east on my mother's couch right now.

:]