Mr. Burbank

Have you ever seen The Truman Show?
His whole lyfe is a lie.
People going through a routine every single day.
Making him believe it was normal to do it.
Everyone watched every move he made.
And nobody was real.
They say that "He" pretty much tests you to see how much you can handle.
And he only gives those kind of 'loads' to people who can carry that weight.
What the fuck.
Really?
Sometymes I think people make up this bullshyt to feel better about themselves.
My exboyfriend committed suicide.
Why the hell would that burden be put on anyone?
His family, his friends, and everyone that loved him.
If 'He' was in any way testing Josh, why the fuck was it sent overboard?
Obviously he couldn't handle what he was dealt.
I'm just so tired.
And I've said it before.
I am defeated.
I feel as if somebody is just playing me as a game.
I'm a little pawn in their massive game of hysterics.
I do something that I feel and I get laughed at.
And pointed at.
And made to feel stupid for.
How can I become a better person if I get dealt nothing but shyt.
And nobody has the answer.